We’re heading back up to Paris next week for our little embryo that has been patiently waiting for us. Up until this week I was really excited and relatively Zen, but as the transfer draws closer the anxieties have crept in. I’m acknowledging them and trying to let them drift by. A couple of clouds are okay, as long as they don’t block out my sun.
I have been yearning to try a transfer on a spontaneous ovulation cycle, and I had felt that various biopsies (ERA and MatriceLab NK cell biopsies during HRT cycles), test results, and feedback from my body have pointed in this direction. I so greatly want to have confidence in my body and its ability to carry a pregnancy, but this confidence is hard to regain after so years and so many failed transfers. In February, I had two WinTest endometrial biopsies done on day 7 and day 9 post-LH surge of a spontaneous ovulation cycle. The results indicated that my endometrium was receptive on both days. The WinTest, like the ERA, is still relatively experimental, but I feel they are the best tools available to me right now to help shed some light on whether we have predominately embryo or implantation issues. The WinTest has helped me gain a little confidence back and has reassured me that it is worth trying a transfer on a cycle where we trust my body to do its own thing. I know this may not be the last step of our journey to sharing our life with a child, but I so hope it will be.